I’m trying to set myself up for a Cinderella moment – my beautiful year-long ball where I will dance with opportunities I can only dream of.
Will the clock strike midnight?
You bet your sweet ass it will, and then the fairy godmother will be back for repayment with interest because shit ain’t free.
In fact, school is rather expensive.
Add on the debt I’ve already racked up in undergrad as well as all living expenses I’ll have over there – apartment, food, and new shoes (because a sheep will inevitably eat one) – because I have a snowball’s chance in Hell of getting a job there or even having the time outside of school to work.
And add as much extra money as I can reasonably loan because I’m a “just in case” kind of person. Also because once I return from this adventure, I will have sold my car, moved out of my apartment, and quit my job. I’ll be returning to nothing.
But hey, at least I’ll have my Cinderella moment. For one year, I’ll live the relative high life.
Maybe I’ll find out what it means to be cultured…
And I’ll have a great story to tell people when I come back.
Which is good, because after this, I’ll need those stories to entertain my future homeless brethren.
In doing this one year of graduate school, I am undoubtedly signing myself up for a lifetime of indentured servitude to student loans.
All the same, thank you federal loan system for graciously accepting my offer of servitude in exchange for money.
Here’s hoping I can seduce someone with my charming awkwardness.
Otherwise, well, I got nothin’.
I’m not expecting a better paying job just because I’ll have a Master’s degree. I honestly haven’t seen that financially benefit anyone else around my age, so I’m only going to safely assume I can get the same part-time hourly positions I’ve had to pay off a crippling amount of debt.
There IS a small little voice in me reminding me that I’m living on Monopoly money and that someday the bubble will burst.
For the meantime, though, I’m comfortably enjoying denial.
Well, more like blatantly ignoring it.
My parents’ reactions when I gave them the total sum for my Cinderella moment is something I’ll never forget.
But it will all be worth it, right?